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A lot in the noggin

I haven’t been posting much for a while now.  While there have been a number of reasons since the postings deminished, the most recent excuse has been because I am doing a large amount of thinking about a particular subject — trying to remain focused on my resolve regarding the matter.

It’s not always an easy thing to do, maintain resolve.

But I am steadfast for the time being.

Once I get my head on straight, I might share the things rumbling around in my head.  In the meantime, I may be somewhat distant until I can feel certain that I can stay the course.

Still waiting…

I’m increasingly wondering if the winners of flash fiction will be announced.  Ever.  Of course, I’m just being impatient.

Still…

It’s frustrating not to know if I am selected or not.

It would be a great bit of news tonight, if it was announced.  Not holding my breath…

No Turning Back

republished from Michael’s other site focused on writing:

I still haven’t heard back regarding the flash fiction competition and I’ve been focusing on revisions rather than posting first draft stories.

One of the revisions I’ve still be working on is “A Parley with the Troll” for submission to a local “competition”, deadline tomorrow.  Based on some helpful criticisms from my wife and the instructor (as well as some student feedback) for my last class, I have performed a number of revisions that make the story a bit stronger than even the most recent version I’ve published on this site.  One of the criticisms I received pointed out that there were parts of the story that were expositional in nature, leading the reader to wonder what point of view the story was being told from (omniscient was the consensus, but I had intended the story to be told from the Mother’s point of view).   I made some significant adjustments in the story to reflect a more consistent POV.

As I think I mentioned before, one of my flash fiction stories was submitted in conjunction with the longer short story in order to express a varying level of written style.  Few changes were made to the piece called “Control” and I have yet to decide if I will publish the version I submitted to the flash competition, or if I will publish the revised version.  I guess it will all depend on the results of that competition…

Anyway, I submitted my pieces to the Loft Literary Center this afternoon to see if I will be selected for their mentorship series.  I can’t take the stories back and revise them any further.  There’s no turning back.

While nobody who was aware of my submission today wished me “break a leg”, I tied my best to fulfill that omen.  While walking towards the Loft’s front doors, I wasn’t looking where my feet went and I managed to find an edge of asphalt in order to turn my ankle on.  Sprained?  Perhaps.  I’m not the kind of person who goes to the doctor to see if I have a sprain or a strain (never had to deal with “broken” that I know of, but I have a crooked finger on one hand that suggests I might not go to a doctor for that either).

Anyway, I’m hoping that the powers that be decide I’ve suffered enough for this particular submission attempt and grant me acceptance into the program.

I know — wishful thinking.

Unfortunately, I won’t discover my status until August, or later.  The official list will be announced in September, so I’ll have doubts if I haven’t heard anything by mid-August (finalists and “winners” will be notified before the official list is published).

Still, a boy can dream, can’t he?

Yet again

I’ve revised one of my stories significantly for about the fourth time.  I’ve lost track of the less significant edits.  It is my intended submission for a mentorship program at the literary center I’ve been taking classes at the past few months.   Another bit of flash fiction is being attached to take full advantage of the page allotment I was given  — a piece from my submission for the contest I entered.  I’d really like to get one-on-one feedback for some of my works and I see this as an opportunity to have such feedback come my way.

I’m optimistic, but I wouldn’t claim to be cocky about my chances.  I’m probably far from the greatest writer making such a submission — but I’ve read other pieces by other people and my own assessment of my writing skills doesn’t seem to be far off the mark.  Advanced, but still in need of fine tuning.  Now that I’ve overcome my distaste for revising work (I actually enjoy it most days), I think that what I publish will have a more polished feel to it.

Now that I’ve put my thoughts down into actual words, I doubt my abilities again.

Maybe a few more tweaks to the piece and then I’ll drop it off and hope for the best.

Unless I chicken out…

Nervy

Okay.

I’m about to make another jump in my writing.  I’m applying for the mentorship program at the literary center where I’ve been taking classes.  If I am one of the twelve selected finalists, I get to work directly with published authors in my genre (fiction).  I lose nothing by applying, other than perhaps my self esteem.  Still, having one’s ego smashed into itty bitty bits isn’t exactly fun — I have to admit that what ego I have is pretty fragile (which is a large part of why I haven’t sought publication and/or kudos in the past 12 years).

While I am still waiting for the results of the recent flash fiction contest, I am exposing myself to more potential rejection….  It makes me nervous.

If any of you know a good charm to help me overcome either my nervousness or ensure acceptance in one or both endeavors, I would greatly appreciate it if you sent that charm my way.

I’ll also take prayers… :)