I’m torn between changing the focus of this site and shutting it down completely. I haven’t written much for quite a while and I haven’t had much inclination to write about most of the things that this site has been centered around since I migrated over from earlier incarnations of my blog.
Part of me wants to get the motivation to write on a more regular basis but with an entirely new vision about subject matter. The other part of me what’s to let sleeping dogs die.
Part of the driving factor is my change of motivation in life. I haven’t had much interest in writing the past nine months or so, fiction, journaling or otherwise. Music is out too. As a site of shameless self promotion, this blog no longer has a purpose.
Why have I lost the drive to write? Blame it on complete disgust with the local community of writers. I definitely don’t want to be a writer if it means being grouped in with the people I met last year. There were exceptions, but it basically felt like a popularity contest back in high school — this time the clique being writers. Except, it was more about tearing each other down than it was about constructive criticism. King of the hill — how many bodies lay bloddy and beaten at your feet?
No — I have no desire to write anymore.
So what have I been doing in my spare time? Playing with my daughter and, when I’m not doing that, escaping into video games, working or sleeping.
Actually, I do want to write — just not fiction and I can’t imagine that this is all that interesting to anyone who is not me.
Well, let’s see if I can write more before another four months has passed. Don’t be surprised if and when I do that things have changed around here, visually and/or subject-wise.